01 de December, 2006

It's Back

The cancer's back.

I found out on 22nd November that it's spread to my liver.  I now have secondary/metatstatic breast cancer.  There were two tumours they could see on the ultrasound scan.  One's 'small', the other's 10cm.
On Tuesday, I'll start 3-weekly Taxotere chemo, in the hope of shrinking and controling it.  With the larger tumour, there's not going to be much room for error.

I feel like my world's fallen apart.  Just when things seemed to be going so well.  Nice holiday, just gone back to work, and then this.
I'd be lying if I said I thought I was coping well.. I'm not.  I'm scared.  I don't want to die.  And I'm sick of crying.  Sick of waking up every morning with sore, puffy eyes, from crying.  Sick of feeling sorry for myself. And sick of keep putting my friends and family through this rubbish.

The cancer's not curable now.  I'm just hoping and praying that it can be controlled for a while.  There's so much I still want to do with my life.  I met the most amazing man in the world in January, and I'm not ready to leave him.

 

Posted by Dee at 01:13:45 | Permanent Link | Comments (3) |
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1 - Just stumbled upon your journal while reading another chronic illness blog and wanted to leave a comment. This round of cancer may be uncurable, but your spirit is strong and will keep you going.

I'll be back. (Comment this)

Written by: Sarah at 2006/12/02 - 23:57:18
2 - Hello babe- love you very much and just to let you know that whatever the weather I'm there for you through it all. You can get through this..put it this way chick, if you can throw yourself out of a plane you can deal with this. Believe it or not, you are very strong, and I really do admire you.....Love ya loads, Lisa xxx (Comment this)

Written by: Lisa at 2006/12/05 - 11:37:31
3 - Dee I am so sorry to hear the cancer is back. Hopefully they can control it from getting any worse. Good Luck with your new treatment. Just remember people are thinking of you and praying for you always.
Melissa (Comment this)

Written by: melissa at 2006/12/08 - 17:05:00
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